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Life is life.

Tue, 10 Apr 2007 00:10:35 GMT

I have a friend from NY visiting. So I'm having fun with her. And classes starts tommarrow for me. Third quarter yay!

Life

Thu, 08 Mar 2007 14:16:02 GMT

Life is ok right now. Im with the woman I love. And I've started working. College is starting to become more of a challenge, but I like it.

My Life as it Stands

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 04:59:15 GMT

Well, I'm with a girl now who lives in Texa. She's 26, and I'm going to go see her in April. Umm, a friend of mine is going through alot of problems in her life, and I'm helping her. We talk alot. And I'm glad someone down here trusts me enough to come to me with personal problems. I miss my friends Kayla. She means alot to me, and I want her in my life. She is still indecisive about where she wants to go for college. I hope she comes here, and moves into Tuscany Bay. That would be totally awsome. I'd love having her live right near me. We'll have so much fun if she does. But she's comming to visit hopefully in May. We will have a blast! Umm...what else? Well, thats about it. Ok later gators!

Animation is a Bitch!

Wed, 24 Jan 2007 06:38:58 GMT

There is so much work to be done, and the time restraints are crazy. It seems like it will never be done on time, and it will look like shit. But when your done with it, and you have it all animated, it is one of the most rewarding expiriences you can have. It's like " Wow, I made that." It's amazing. A bitch yes, but amazing.

The Next Day

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 01:08:51 GMT

Last night was Fucking AWESOME!!!! I got wasted and had a shitload of fun. I played beerpong, and drunken Super Smash Bros Melee, and drunken Wii Sports. And all I really had in terms of a hangover was a minor headache.

Life

Sun, 14 Jan 2007 18:35:27 GMT

Life is ok. It is still a little confusing and painful, but I think it will be getting better soon. I just have a feeling in my gut. My ex loves me still, and I still care for her. But I can't do an internet thing again. I just can't do it. But she's trying to come to college here where I am. If that does happen, it will be awsome. She and I have always been...interesting. We know each other better than anyone else. And we have always gotten along. If we are able to get together in life, I might just go crazy. To have her around would absolutly rock. But rigth now, like I said, I can't do an internet thing. In life I'm having no luck. There are actually a couple women I'm interested in. One doesn't think of me and I know I have just about nop shot with her. It's fine. I've excepted it. I'm fine with just being her friend. The other I'm a friend with also. But recently we have gotten alot closer in our friendship. But I'm pretty sure that's not gonna happen either. So like I said, life is ok. Not bad, but definatly not good either. Ok ttyl peoples.

I'm ok I guess.

Thu, 04 Jan 2007 13:41:21 GMT

I blew up at the world in my last blog, but I think I'm ok now. Some shit is still happening in my life. The girl I like doesn't want to be with me, and my friend likes me, but I only want to be her friend. My life has never been so complicated. I guess it's all apart of growing up, and apart of college. Oh well. We shall see how this works out.

WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wed, 13 Dec 2006 13:58:12 GMT

OK right now I'm sick and tired of everyone trying to help me. Almost everybody in my life right now wants me to share my feeling and personal issues witht hem. First off, I have no problems with talking about my issues or feeling. Th eproblem is that I only trust a few people with that info. Not everyone I know get to hear about my life. Thats the way I like it. My roomates want me to talk to them about my stuff, and my friends. Even my mother wants me to talk to her. I know everyone wants to help me, but I just can't go on about my life to just anyone. An dit is really ticking me off that everyone wants to know what is going on in my life. Here's the thing thought, I blog it out sometimes. I feel better inside when I blog out my problems,. So if you want to help read my blogs, and then message me. But I will voice my life to a few people. Why? Because to me Bloging out my life is very unemotional, and rigid. When I talk to the people I trust about it... I don't know it just feels right. Right now my life is very caotic. And I'm very cranky and shit. College is fun, but it's also a bitch.

My Life part 2

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 14:05:44 GMT

Well, I feel alot better today. Fo awhile I was scared that Jen and I would turn out to be like me and Tamie after our break-up. After we broke uo me and Tamie wanted to stay friends, but it didn't turn out that way. Right now we are at the point of pure hatred for each other. Maybe that'll change. Maybe it won't. But I don't think Jen and I will be like that. Hopefully we can remain friends. That''s the direction we are heading in, so we'll see.

My Life Update for the first week of Dec.

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 03:50:59 GMT

Well, I'll give a week's recap, since it all ties in together. Ok on Sunday I had a date with a girl that I was interested in. It went well by all accounts I thought. Then on Mon my friends moved mine and one of my roomates christmas tree. A set of lights broke. Then, when me and that roomate moved it back, a few ornaments broke. So, when those friends came back me and Durel locked the door.My friends laptop was in the apartment, and she wanted it back. So I took Liz's laptop ashe didn't want to be with mend placed it outside the doo, told her to come get it, and slammed the door shut. She thinks I dropped the laptop on the ground but I didn't. I locked the door again, and she made a huge ruckus. I let her in to get her other stuff, and she flipped out and tried to shove me through our window.

Later on that day, the girl I was interested in, Jen wrote me a note saying that she wasn't interested in me as more than a friend. And she was sorry if she sent the wrong signals. Also she believes that I still have feelings for my ex ,Tamie, and she didn't want to be a rebound girl. Well, I sent the note right back saying that if she didn't want to be with me fine. But I didn't have any feelings for my ex anymore. Which is the truth. So then about five minutes later Jen and Tamie both come down here and Tamie started flipping out at me and saying a lot of incohearent things. Jen asked me if I had been telling anyone that we were a couple or together, and I told her that I hadn't which is also the truth. The only thing I have said to other people is that I didn't know what we were, because we had only been on one date, so therefore we realy couldn't be anything. I was intending to find out what we could've been but that's pretty much a dead and buried idea now. So then they left.

Even more later on, was when my roomate ,Mike, came home from work. I told him about the whole incident that day. And he then said to me that he knew that me and Jen ending before we could begin the night before. But whe I asked him how he knrew he said he wouldn't tell me. I overreacted and started a fight with him. We ended up grappeling and if our other friends hadn't stopped us, we probably would've started throwing fists. Oh but that ain't the end of it. I started arguing with my friends and I ended up going out for a run. It lasted an hour and a half. Then I slept in my car for awhile. And when I wnet to bed in my bed I started having serious thoughts about putting a bullet in my head.